I started November 14th. 100 days lose fifty pounds.

Hi. 
I am blogging, solely for the purpose of making myself commit to this project, process. I may use it for other goals as well.
But as it stands on February 23, 2012 I will turn FIFTY years old.  I have allowed myself to put on five pounds a year, every so often and have found myself seventy pounds overweight!


I can be honest about a lot of my shortcomings but the actual pounds I weigh cannot be listed here because my husband is number obsessed and will go ballistic if he knows my actual weight. Even when I was i size 8, I weighed much more than people expected. SO after I have lost the fifty, and can fit into a 10 or twelve I will disclose all of the numbers. Because if I look acceptable, the number won't matter at all. I can admit though, that right now I wear a size 18.   At size 14, I looked okay in photos...but now I hide from cameras or move to the back.


Losing weight used to be so easy, and I was an attractive young woman, I didn't have make an effort to look pretty. I am an artist and prefer a more natural look...But about twelve years ago, I remember crying to my boss when I realized guys weren't looking or flirting anymore when I walked by. I had become sexually invisible. I did nothing about it but continued my old low-maintenance ways.


 Well, I have learned from days when I had a meeting or event...that ten minutes with a hairbrush, lipstick and mascara and people think you've worked a miracle. People are almost shocked that they can see a glimpse of beauty. Except those we haven't seen in a long time. Nobody recognized me at our 35 th High school reunion except the people I've maintained friendships with.


So, Okay, I am not going to be nineteen or even thirty again. But I can be slim again. And I would love to dance freely without feeling winded or that blobby awkward bouncing of flesh that inhibits my moves and confidence. I need to regain fitness. So my new old self will have youthful confidence and a fit and (vaguely) familiar shape, But is my new old self because i've got some years now and they're here to stay... and that's okay!


My approach to my weight loss will be as follows:

• The first three weeks will be an atkins-like ketogenic approach, with near elimination of carbs.
• I will not give up tea, and will drink it with milk too.
• I will take long (4-6 mile) brisk walks with friends several days a week.
• On holidays, I will eat whatever I want, but not giant nor multiple portions.
• After the first three weeks, I will allow a few whole grain carbs and beans into my diet.
• I will add pilates and stairs to my walking or dance for sustained times at home to fun music.
• I will weigh myself every Sunday Night and post my losses here.

Success is its own reward, but I do hope to allow myself to work on art projects and home beauty treatments to keep in touch with my new old self.


Well, here goes, wish me luck,
Love ,
New old self